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2011-05-27

Why

পূর্ণ হয়েছে সব চাহিদা,
কিছুই তো নেই বাকি;
তবু কেন আজ ব্যথিত হৃদয়,
অশ্রু ভেজা আঁখি?

पूरे हुए अरमान सारे,
कुछ नहीं है कम;
फिर भी क्यूँ ये दर्दे-दिल,
आँखे क्यूँ है नम?

Desires are all fulfilled,
Nothing more to get;
Why then the wrenched heart,
Why the eyes are wet?

2011-05-26

Mask - মুখোশ

আজ মানুষ মাত্রই একটা মুখোশ,
কেউ জানেনা তার আসল পরিচয়।
হারিয়ে গেছে তার পেছনের মুখ,
কেউ জানতে হায় আর চায়ে ও না।

তাই আমিও আজ মুখোশের আড়ালে,
তাই আমার ঠোঁটের কোণেও আজ হাসি,
কোনো কষ্টই আর ছুটে পারে না আমায়,
আজ সবাই ই যে আমার বড় আপন।

আজ মুখোশ ই আমার বন্ধু,
আর নিজেকেই ভুলতে চাই,
নিজেরই সাজানো এই মেকি স্বপ্নে,
আজ নিজেই নিজেকে হারাই।

এর ই মধ্যে এলে তুমি এক ঝড় হয়ে,
তোলপাড় করে দিলে আমার অস্তিত্ব,
কেড়ে নিতে চাইলে আমার মুখোশ,
চিনে নিতে চাইলে আসল আমাকে।

ভালোবেসে কাছে এসেছিলে তুমি,
খুলে ফেলে দিয়েছিলে আমার মুখোশ,
কিন্তু হায়, হয়ে ওঠেনি তোমারও জানা,
মুখোশের আড়ালেও ছিল আর একটি মুখোশ।

2011-05-23

Talash - तलाश

आज भी मेरे होँठो के बीच
एक हंसी दबी सी बैठी है,
उसे खिलखिलाती मुस्कराहट बनादे
कुछ ऐसे पल के लिए प्यासा हूँ।

आज भी मेरे कानो में
एक मीठी सी धुन गुनगुनाती है,
उस धुन को सुरीला गीत बनादे
ऐसे लब्ज़ोँ के इंतज़ार में हूँ।

आज भी बंद आँखोँ में
कई सारे सहमे से सपने हैं,
उन्हें सच करने की हिम्मत दे
उस भरोसे के लिए तरसता हूँ।

आज भी दिल के किसी कोने में
कई अरमान छिपाके रक्खे हैं,
उन अरमानो को पंख फैलाये उड़ने दे
एक ऐसे आसमान को खोजता हूँ।

आज भी ज़िन्दगी के किताब में
कई कोरे पन्ने बाकि पड़े हैं,
उन पन्नो को सजाने के लिए
कहानियोँ के तलाश में भटकता हूँ।

ये तलाश आज तुम्हारे पास है ले आई
तुम, जिसने मेरे गीतोँ में लब्ज़ दिए,
भरोसा दिया मेरे हर इरादे को
मेरे दिल के सारे अरमान पुरे किये।

तुम से है मेरी ज़िन्दगी की शुरुआत
और तुम्ही पे आके ख़तम होती है,
तुम्हारे बिना अधुरा ये जीवन मेरा
उन कोरे पन्नो में कहानी तुम्हे ही लिखनी है।

2011-05-21

Mohabatt - मुहब्बत

मुहब्बत क्या है,
किसी की मीठी सी आवाज़,
या फिर कोई मोहक अंदाज़,
दिल को छु लेने वाली बोली,

 या शरारती आँख-मिचोली,
हमे तो बस मुहब्बत की
प्यास है।

मुहब्बत क्या है,
कोई
दिलासा देती हाथ,
किसी अपने का साथ,
कहीं कड़े धूप में छाया,
या मोहमई कोई काया, 

हमे तो बस मुहब्बत की तलाश है।

मुहब्बत वोह है,
वो जो दुःख में साथ निभाती है,
वो जो गम में भी हंसाती है,
जो भरोसे का एहसास दिलाये,
जो हर पल साथ निभाए,

हमने उस मुहब्बत को जाना है।

मुहब्बत
वोह है,
जो बेझिजक तुमसे प्यार करे,
जो दुनिया से यह कहते ना डरे,
जिसके बिना ज़िन्दगी अधूरी है,
जिसकी ख़ुशी सबसे ज्यादा ज़रूरी है,
हमे उसी मुहब्बत को अपनाना है।

2011-05-20

Hunger


The day had started like any other,
As usual I was talking to myself;
It did not seem at all unnatural,
Yet I was apprehended, frowned on.

I told myself, “I am hungry”,
I responded, “Go get your food”;
“Where do I get it?” I requested.
“Earn it”, came the curt reply.

Neither was I sure how to do that.
Nor was I aware how to learn;
Nevertheless I decided to try,
I could not afford to go hungry.

I treaded down the path I was on,
There were so many people around;
They were all busy in their own work
Inundated in a world of their own.

A curtain parted in front of me,
It was all suddenly so lucid;
A fog seemed to melt away,
I could see the horizon and beyond.

It was painfully obvious to me then
Everyone was busy at the same work,
They were all pursuing the same goal,
To earn the bread for self and family.

The more I looked the more it was evident.
An overwhelming curiosity pegged me on,
All other feelings and sensations subsided
Had to find the underlying cause and reason.

It's now time to turn in,
I am full and well fed,
There's one thing I learnt today,
As I toiled for my bread.

By sweat, blood or toil;
By means evil or good,
No matter how things stack up,
We had to earn our food.

2011-05-16

Rudropolash - রুদ্রপলাশ

আজ হাজার মানুষের ভিড়ে
মন একা বসে ভাবে,
শৈশব এর সেই হাসি
আবার ফিরে পাব কবে।

ফিরে পেতে চায়ে মন
সেই ভোরের আকাশ
শিশির ভেজা মাঠ
আর বন্ধু রুদ্রপলাশ।

দিয়েছ কত সঙ্গ আমায়
শৈশবের সে দুপুর বেলা,
দেখেছ মোদের মাঠ জুড়ে
চু-কিত-কিত, হা-ডু-ডু খেলা।

কত হাসি-কান্নার গল্প নিয়ে
তোমার সামনেই কৈশোর এ পাড়ি,
তোমার ছায়ায়ে ছিল আমাদের
এক অনাবিল আনন্দময় সপ্নপুরী।

ফুলের গালিচা পেতে ডেকেছ,
কোনো সুখ ই দিতে রাখনি বাদ,
আজ প্রতি মুহুর্তের ব্যস্ততায়
হারিয়েছে সে সব আনন্দ আস্বাদ।

তোমার ছায়ায় বসেই পেলাম
সেই প্রথম প্রেমের চিঠি,
তার পর এক বছর ধরে
কত ভালবাসা, খুনসুটি।

তারপর হঠাৎ ই একদিন
তোমার ছেড়ে চলে যাওয়া,
একবার, সুধু একটিবার,
আমার দিকে ফিরে চাওয়া।

কত কান্না বুকে চেপে রেখে
বলেছিলাম, "ভালো থেকো"
সুধু এইটুকু ছিল প্রার্থনা,
আমায়ে চিরকাল মনে রেখো।

এত পথ পাড়ি দিয়ে এসে
তুমি আজ সুধুই পুরনো স্মৃতি,
তাও কেন যে ভুলতে পারিনি
সেই প্রথম প্রেমের চিঠি।

অমলিন সে চিঠির লেখা
আজও মনের মাঝে,
সযত্নে রাখা আছে সে ফুল
বই এর পাতার খাঁজে।

ঘর ছেড়ে আজ অনেক দূরে
এই স্বেচ্ছা কারাবাস,
আগলে রাখি তোমার স্মৃতি
হে বন্ধু রুদ্রপলাশ।

2011-05-15

Unspoken Words


18:30 – Durgapur Station


Stepping on to the platform panting and drenched in sweat, the first thing I noticed was the crowd. It was extra strong for a Thursday. Then again, it was not your regular Thursday. 

The daily passengers today were augmented by the horde of students from the neighbouring engineering colleges. They were all headed home for the extended weekend of "Kaali Pujo" and "Bhaifota". There were smiles on most faces, in anticipation of the celebrations and festivities.

I too, was one of the later; eager to get away from the dreaded dreariness of an engineering college hostel. The thought of a comfortable bed at home then was more alluring than the promise of manna from heaven.

We did not have to wait long. The announcement for the train was followed by a flurry of activity. It was a blurred cacophony. The whistle of the incoming train – sudden restlessness – the train rolling to a halt – a mad rush and scampering – the whistle again and then on our way. 

It ended as suddenly as it had begun. As the train picked up speed everything quickly settled down. Fate, it seemed, was generous to me. I was elated to be by the window. It was not that I was given much to the scenes passing swiftly by in the twilight, but now that the train started picking up speed, the wind rushing in had a great soothing effect on the tired and sleep deprived mind of mine. I dozed.

19:00 – Panagarh Station


I was jolted to full consciousness as the train slowed to a halt. The train had arrived at its next stoppage. It was a repeat of the same scene over again. The cool wind had refreshed me. “Winter is on its way at last,” I thought wistfully.

Amidst the rush, I three new faces took their seats beside me. A lady with her two young daughters; clearly headed for her maternal home for the festivities. Their father had come to see them off.

The younger daughter was pestering her mother for not having a window seat. Her sister, trying to act all grown up, was trying to dissuade her.

 “It’s all dark. There is nothing to see.”

“But there are so many lights in the dark. They are so beautiful.”

Amused, I invited her to come and sit by my side. Their mother looked at me suspiciously, but the kid was by my side before she could say anything. 

Their mother thanked me and engaged in some small-talk. I could sense she was apprehensive and was trying to gauge if I had any ill intentions. I realized a hectic day at college and a near impossible dash to the station to catch the train had left my appearance far from convincing. Nevertheless, the terms Computer Science Engineer and National Institute of Technology do work wonders.

19:30 – Bardhaman Station


The last half an hour had made it clear that I had a new friend. And I clearly couldn’t resist getting a chocolate bar for her from the hawkers who boarded the train as it rested a while at Bardhaman. Her sister, Mampi, too got one in her honour. She took it, thanking me politely and submerged herself in her comic once again.

Their mother Mitin did not seem to mind my friendliness towards her daughters any more. Having established the safety of my intentions some time earlier, she was lost in her thoughts. Constantly fiddling with her mobile phone, she was probably awaiting a call.

And then there was Munni. She clearly was of a different mettle. She was undoubtedly the most vivacious and garrulous 8 year old. She had talked constantly and inundated me with everything I thought she could tell me and more.

From her, I got to know their names, that her sister was 12 and was the brightest student in her class, that they were headed for their Mama’s place in New Alipore, that her dress was brand new; having been bought by her father only yesterday and hundred and one other odds-and-ends she could think of.

While I was admiring this human Elixir of Happiness, she had neatly finished her chocolate and was tugging at my arm. She had more to tell me. I found myself smiling. Clearly, her happiness was infectious. I turned to her and immersed myself in her story.

20:30 – Bandel Station


The spell was broken by Mitin’s words. “Here, Mama wants to talk to you,” she said, handing the cell-phone to her daughter.

As Munni directed her attention to her Uncle and plans of chocolates, cakes and ice-creams for the next four days, I noticed that we were rolling out of Bandel. I was so mesmerised by our conversation, I hardly realised how time had flown by.

I found Munni to be not only a sweet and charming girl, but also very smart and mature beyond her years. With both parents out working, the two sisters had to house to themselves most of the time. And they ran it as well as they could.

 “I love to cook, and I am good at it,” she said. “But Didi doesn’t let me. She says I put too much sugar in everything.” She confided she knew and told me with a wink, “But then I love sweet.” I couldn’t help but smile.

And then there was her sister. Munni literally hero worshipped her. If perfection could be found on Earth, it was to be found in Mampi.

 “Didi comes first in class every time. I managed it only once, that too last year.”

 “Didi does all the tough sums so quickly. She does her own homework and even helps me with mine.”

 “Didi is a wonderful singer. She wins so many medals and trophies. She can also dance so well. She even goes to an Arts & Crafts class.”

 “Whenever Reena Aunty takes leave, Didi cooks such nice snacks for me in the evening. She has taught me so many dishes as well. And she doesn’t let me do anything.”

“And Didi is not mischievous like me. She can’t climb trees or doesn’t bring pups and kittens home from the street like me.”

 “So you climb trees?” I inquired.

“Mum doesn’t let me. Dad is okay. He lets me climb the guava tree in our house and get ripe guavas. He waits for me underneath the tree and I throw him the guavas.”

“Mum scolds Dad for it. She thinks I will fall,” she giggled. “I actually have a couple of times. Dad did not tell mum.”

A little angel in an idyllic family; what else is heaven, if not this?

She had finished her conversation with her uncle and directed her attention once again towards me. She was ready to speak and I was eager to listen.

21:20 – Outside Howrah Station


We were nearing the end of our journey. The train was stuck at the signal outside Howrah station, awaiting a platform allotment.

Mitin was busy getting their entire luggage in place. She asked me to awaken Munni, who had peacefully gone to sleep in my lap, exhausted. She still had the looks of a cherubic baby. But no, she was not a baby. She was as grown up as me or anyone else in the compartment; maybe even more.

What she told me had put my mind in topsy-turvy. I was awestruck with the depths of her feelings.

It all started with her mother Mitin telling her to stop bothering me with all her childish talk. I reassured her I didn’t mind and was actually enjoying it.

It was then that she asked me, “I do talk too much, isn’t it?”

 “So what? Even I talk a lot,” I said. She seemed to pay no attention.

 “And yet no one knows what I think, because I never tell that.” I was startled. The words seemed so out of place on that innocent face.

It all came out like a gushing fountain after that. How her father wanted a son but had her instead. How her mother always compared her with Mampi and found her wanting. How her Hero-Sister locked her up in the large apartment all alone in the evenings while she went out to her tutorials till she or one of the parents came back home. How everyone was always busy, everyone except her. How she was all alone.

Yet she kept up her brave happy front. Each sad word was hidden in praise – for her Dad, her Mum and her Didi. Each dry tear was covered with a smile.

I was awakened from my reminiscence by the familiar sights and sounds of Howrah station. The train was rolling in. I awakened Munni softly.

“Get up sweetheart, we have reached.”

She jumped up gleefully. “Great. Mama will be waiting at the platform. I bet he brought his new car.”

I too, got up, gathered my backpack and was putting it on, getting ready to disembark. I felt a by then familiar tug at my arm. Munni was asking me to bend down to her.

 “Will you please hold my hand and help me get down from the train?” she spoke in an almost inaudible whisper.

21:30 – Platform 14, Howrah


She had spotted her uncle as soon as we de-boarded the train. She freed her hand from me and ran to him. I followed her with Mitin and Mampi.

Munni introduced me to her uncle as her boyfriend. All of us roared with laughter. She was holding my hand and blushing. After brief introductions, it was time to go. All of us were in a hurry to get home and I took their leave.

I was headed towards the crowded local trains which would take me home. My beautiful co-passenger was headed to the car park with her family. Munni kept turning and waving at me. She had made me promise to call her and talk to her regularly. How could I refuse her?

I was lost in thought. I don’t know what had earned me the blessing of this friendship. I don’t know what made her confide in me. But a 22 year old engineer had become the best friend of an 8 year old girl barely out of kindergarten. It was the strongest bond I had ever felt with anyone.

I don’t know if this friendship will last. I don’t know if we will keep in touch or if we won’t; let alone ever meet again. But one thing was for sure. In the span of a 3 hour journey, this little girl had revealed to me a vivid scene from this panorama we call life.

Dreams & Reality

If I could choose my dreams,
Dreams dreamt with open eyes,
I would dream of vast green fields,
Of turquoise seas and clear blue skies.

A dream of bliss and gaiety,
With a smile for every face,
Each new day of happiness,
Each night, in the lap of grace.

The fields turn to dead desert as I see,
The skies rent with moans and wail,
Pain and anguish stretch to the horizons
The devastation is on an unimagined scale.

The world is down with illness,
The symptoms visible far and wide,
The sand castles of hopes and wishes
Leveled away by the bellowing tide.

As the world is hidden in Shadow,
And Torment smoothly takes its toll,
As my dreams turns to a nightmare,
I wish never to have dreamt at all.

The dream was broken, I was awake,
The frightful scenes still in my eyes,
My hopes that is was just a dream
Dashed by relentless screams and cries.

I closed my eyes with a deep fear,
Afraid of what I would see,
My dream was a dream no more,
It was cold cruel reality.

Curiosity, yet, is stronger still,
And I did open my eyes,
Only to find a still stranger sight,
Under those gloomy skies.

An old man lost in the passage of days
His back bent with years of burden,
Yet with his dim sight and frail hands
He was tending a beautiful garden.

Smile on his lips, twinkle in his eyes,
He merrily toiled away,
In his hands he held a lily,
He said, “It bloomed this very day!”

“I keep up this garden,” he said
“Be it rain or shine.
To fill the world with flowers
Is the dream of mine.”

“Does not this appear to be a folly,
To strive for such impossibility?
There is only so much we can do,
For we are all bound by our ability.”

He smiled at me and replied,
“Your concerns are very kind,
As long as  there is one more bloom
I surely would never mind.”

His words meant more to me
more than he meant them to be.
For if we put our mind to it
Our dreams too can be a reality.

2011-05-14

Unfair

My life is made of dreams,
Woven with open eyes,
With feet tied in chains,
In days of pain and sighs.

The hand wipes the tears,
The mind stifles the cries;
While my heart spreads its wings,
To conquer the vast open skies.

Each new day is different,
Yet they all feel the same;
A rat race, an endless struggle,
For money, fortune and fame.

The perpetrator's pit-less hunger,
The victim's hidden shame;
Each one but dumb pawns,
In Fate's tyrannical game.

Smiles, laughter 'n merriment,
True; they come by and by,
Keep 'em I can't, a moment more,
No matter how hard I try.

The tears stay on with me,
Oft hidden from you;
When you hear that life's unfair,
Just know it to be true.